The group that we had was the one thing that kept me going. It honestly was. Now that its gone I feel like there's no reason now. Even if we meet up in the future it will never be the same and I feel like deep down everyone else does too. And now the only way to see you is to get help. I honestly would do it for you but I don't think I have the motivation to. I ruined the group and y'all say it wasn't but it was. I don't need you guys to lie to me about it if its so obvious. I hope that in another life I can see you.