Unsent Messages

I hate that I can't get you out of my head, can't just let go of you. It feels so ridiculous because it was never really anything, I just made it into something bigger because I wanted it to be bigger. But the feelings I had for you at one point were so strong and real and I think I just didn't want to let go of that. You treated me like shit half of the time and like no one else existed the other half. In a way it feels like everything started with you, everything went wrong with you, even though I know that's not really true. But it's been four years since I saw you last, and yet you were the first person I thought of to send a message to. Why? I don't know, I don't think I ever will. I convinced myself I was in love with you, I know I wasn't now, but then why do I still think of you? Why are you still in my head? Go away please...