i wish i knew what we were. i wish you could just tell me everything. the truth. i know you never lied to me but it would be nice to know everything. i want to be sure. i want to know what we are. what are we anyway? did you use me? i don't know. you promised me you wouldn't ghost me. hurt me. you only hurt me a little. but the ghosting hurts a lot. i wish i had the courage to tell you how i feel. instead i hide my real feelings and pretend to be happy at all times. but you know sometimes i'll open up to you because i trust you that much. i never open up to anybody.. except for you. you lead me on first. now i can't let go. you knew about my attachment issues. you knew. and you still did this. do you even love me, alex? i don't know. i'll never know for sure. as much as you tell me i don't know if i can believe you or not. but i wish the best for you. i just want you to be happy, whether it's with or without me. i want nothing but happiness for you. that is all.