you rewrote my history. you were not my first kiss, in my mind my first kiss with you will be after falling asleep together, we wake up- both of us with headaches and freshly showered- when you look at me, head tilted in question, and finally decide to try it. you were the first boy i wanted to kiss. you were the first boy i wanted to hold me. you were the first boy i wanted so deeply. you were not my first. i will always wish you were.