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♪“watch you sleep” - girl in red♪

There’s this cherry blossom park in japan called “Yoyogi”. It has 730 sakura trees. It has a big field where you won’t get interrupted by others. We could set up a picnic there with homemade bentos. Watch the sunset and take a stroll around during the night. I always dreamed that. Imagine how pretty it would be. I only wanna do it with you. Let’s save up and take a vacation in Japan someday ahahaha.

There’s more places that I wanna go to with you. I usually like my own company most of the time, but you’re just so different. The atmosphere becomes prettier with you close to me. Isn’t that weird.. And sometimes time moves faster and slower at different times with you. I could spend hours and hours with you and never get tired.

Everything about you to me is so prepossessing. I think it’s quite normal for someone’s s/o to stand out more than the rest.. Or maybe I'm just attached HAHAHA :,D But really, I wish you could see yourself the way I do sometimes.

I say that I don’t know much about you, and there really is so much more I need to learn about you, but I pick up a few things there and there. You might be tall and big, but I know your complexion is the softest and fragile one I know.

And you could hate your vulnerable and weak side to me, but I’ll always find it enthralling. Maybe it’s because seeing someone let their guard down and become distraught at the thought of losing me makes me feel loved for once. I find myself reading your old text messages over and over again. Listening to your voice memos because your voice always soothes me. Your laugh at even the most random shit always gets me. The face you make when you’re flustered. Your slow breaths when you’re sleeping. And I could never forget the warmth of your body and how peaceful you look sleeping. My head would always fill with thoughts during that. Maybe it’s because I still couldn’t really fathom my feelings and relationships. It just seems too good to be true, I guess.

But just like the phases of blossoms, your bright side that I’ve always adored could puny too. I know you’re just as damaged and hurt from your past just as I am. But I’m glad you opened up to me. That meant so much. I still remember when you broke down that night. I'm glad I was there to comfort you. Because you have no idea how badly I wanna fix you. But I can’t. And that’s why I’ll stay by your side no matter what to at least push off a bit of that pain away.


Trust me k. , if you just wait and stay for me, I promise to love you more than anyone else.