Unsent Messages

the first time you left me i didn't cry i had expected it. but we still texted as friends and i could tell you were still texting me more then a friend. anyways the second time when you said those things to me when you left and gave up again. that time it killed me it did. I couldn't stop crying my eyes were so very red puffy ect. but this. this feeling right here hurts the most. you have completely moved on. the worst part is you seem happier then i ever made you. you. you two seem closer then we ever were and y'all haven't even known each other longer then a month. you told me yall have ft everyday since yall started texting. you post about her so much. i had to leave your priv story cuz of that lol. anyways your killing me rn but im glad your happy. just makes me feel like i was never good enough and i never will be. i feel like shit and i was 8 days clean but then way to many emotions hit me and i was suddenly 0 days clean. im not saying its your fault im just saying that it really sucks to feel this way. and it sucks that i dont hate you and would most likely take you back. but its not like you would even want me back. i hate myself so much .