Unsent Messages

oh jaxson i wish i could explain to you how much you ruined me. i loved you in all the ways you couldnt love me, and i let you off the hook for it everytime and i wish i could just go back and just ignore you that first day you talked to me in the sixth grade. maybe i would be happier if i had never met you. we do the same thing so often it hurts, one of us will text the other and we go from there. i mean i dont love you anymore but you still changed my way of seeing things, i almost feel like i should thank you but i know that i could never thank you for any of the shit you did, caused, and said. i have moved on, im with someone else now. but i just needed to tell you all the shit you did to me. you left me crying in bed for days before coming back and saying that your sorry and that youve changed and you still love me. and i took you back, every single damn time. because i loved you and i thought if i loved you enough, maybe it woukd make up for the lack of love you showed me, and maybe, just maybe, i could change you into a better person. well it never worked cause look where we are now, im changed into a better person because of you and you are still the same, telling the girls youve changed and you still play them in the end. i hope that one day you find a woman you love and youre gonna take care of her and never let her go and someday you are going to ask her to marry you and shes going to say yes. and i hope you realize in that moment all the mistakes that you have made, and that you vow never to hurt that girl like you hurt me, and so many other girls. jaxson i hope you grow up and live a happy, full, life. because no matter how much you hurt me, i will always care about you in the smallest bit. good bye jaxson.