From: ABC
To: me
Date: December 27, 2020, 2:03 am
i just feel so lost and so unhappy all the time i get hurt over every little thing and people don't seem to care i don't know what i want i don't know so stop asking me and stop making me choose i know I'm slipping and i feel like I've just lost myself completely please don't make me choose
is it really going to be like this forever? i feel trapped i just feel like a stranger to myself and nobody will ever understand
who am i? who am i? who am i?am i going to feel like this forever? i just cant do this
i just want to be special i just want to be important i just want to be famous i just want to be loved i just want to be somebody people make films about somebody with hobbies and interests that you want to know every little detail of but its never going to be like that never ill never be good enough and i just want to be the best i want to be better i want you to notice me i want everyone to notice me i want to be underestimated i want to blow people away i want to surpass your expectations
but there's always going to be someone in my way. and its myself