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♪ “toodoo” - the tellers ♪
-ill start putting songs you can listen to on loop while reading if you ever find these in the future :)

Your better half. It doesn’t have to be a romantic interest really, but obviously it is. Do they make you a better person? Do YOU make them a better person? Isn’t that so corny, but it makes sense.

Writing these, it reminds me of all the stupid little things I’ve done. Double checking every photo just to make sure I looked pretty or decent enough to send to you. Spritzing one last of my perfume so that I would smell decent enough for you not to run away HAHAHA. Picking up all the clothes off my bedroom floor before you sneak in at 11 pm, even though we somehow make it even worse- Backspacing my texts and rewriting it again because if you have not known already, words matter to me a lot.

There are so much more I could think of. And I know you’re about to say that those don’t really matter to you and that you’ll still love me no matter what blah blah blah. Don’t get me wrong, I like that :) .

But there’s this other kind of better half. One where I wanna be better for you. Not better in a way that’ll completely change me. No. No. It's the little things.

You know how much of a terrible cook I am. I have burnt so much butter. Yes, butter. And a lot of other things. ( I have even over boiled water once :) ) And even though my sink would be full of bottom-burnt pans and my house filled with smoke, I’ll keep trying. I could go through hundreds and hundreds of cooking tutorials on youtube and hundreds of food wiki-how articles until I could cook the prettiest egg for you. That won’t be burnt of course :) .

And I know you’re gonna say it's okay. That you’ll cook for me and I won’t have to go through those efforts. But my efforts for you, that’s what makes me a better half for you. I wanna take care of you too like those female protagonists in romantic anime’s. It seems stupid, but to me it isn’t. When you get sick, I could prepare something hot for you. When it gets too cold, I could serve us something hot and tasty while we stay in and watch movies. Just the two of us. I want that and so I’ll keep trying…. With your help of course. Yeah you thought I could do this by myself? You promised you’ll teach me how to cook and you will! I’ll remember that promise so please make it. I learn pretty quickly too!

There’s still so many things I wanna be better at. But you know what, I’m not too worried about that. You’ll wait right? I could do so many things. There's still a lot of magic tricks that I hope you'll finally let me show you huhu. And hey maybe I could teach them to you too, and our kids when we grow up :) .

And you.. You get so frustrated when you don’t feel good enough for me which is so absurd haha, because trust me, I could witness you fail over and over again, but I’ll still be in the back cheering you on. I’m not saying you have to feel like you’re ever gonna be good enough, because I sometimes feel the same way and It’s okay. As long as you know that I won’t run away from your failures and lowest low, that's enough for me….. That’s what a better half is. We’ll both be there for each other. For the better.. Or even the worst :) . I can’t wait to stand by your side when you do great things. You’re gonna be an amazing student. You’re gonna succeed as a surgeon. You’re gonna be the best wife and mom.

I’ll be there for it all.

I love you..
...my better half.