i just need to get this out somewhere. im terrified of death. it scares me. thr thought of losing someone, never seeing, smelling or touching them again. im scared im dying myself. but then i have the moments. i dont want to die; but disappear. i feel the need to distance and hide my feeling sometimes. little things can get to me and i slowly get hurt or distance. the thoughts can take over and it seems as i am small, that i wouldnt be missed and that it doesnt matter. but deep down i know i would hurt everyone i love and i would be missed. it would have an impact. anyine would have an impact. you are imporatnt. there are so many people that have been losed due to this. but seriously you are not alone.