Unsent Messages

i hate even saying these words but the last sentence basically broke me. you're the only person thats ever made me cry so hard, i couldn't breathe. stop saying you should have realised how special i was. i'm the one that was desperately in love with you, but still broke up with you. i was the one who broke my heart, not you. all i've been for the past year, is ex who could never let you go. i don't want to be that person anymore, for your sake and mine - i can't remember the last time i spent a full hour without thinking about you, every time i message you - i feel like im literally ruining your life. even tho c has every right to hate me, i'm always gonna believe you deserve the best of the best - that's why we didn't work out. so please just promise me this, you will always remember that you deserve someone who respects you, loves you (and knows how to show it) as well as someone who will always appreciate every second they spend with you. i don't say this stuff because of how i feel, (despite what everyone thinks), i say it because you gave me a booklet full of 100 reasons and i never appreciated that enough. so please don't stop until you find someone that gives you a booklet with 1000. i really fucking wish i did.