From: ABC
To: mum
Date: January 3, 2021, 2:50 pm
it’s been five years since what you did. i started feeling depressed and nothing’s changed and i can’t bring myself to leave you forever but i think it would be best. things aren’t even that bad anymore but i’m just sick of my body reacting to things like i’m in a life or death situation. everything’s apparently better and it’s been a few months since some scary stuff has happened but i don’t feel better. i keep reacting like it's the end of the world. I think I've seen you, that i used to consider my world, almost leave me so many times now that everything that goes wrong feels that extreme. I should be feeling so good these days, but i just feel stuck. How do I move on from all the stuff I've been through. How do I live life if it always feels like I'm about to die??? why can’t you just be my mum again. when i was little you said your favourite colour was pink