Unsent Messages

There are things that have become clear to me today. Paxton, you are emotionally suppressed and debilitated by your wish to be an apathetic loser. The problem is, you will never be able to run away from the thoughts in your head or the feelings in your heart. The mindset that you have taken on is closed off and reserved. This is no way to live a fulfilling life which is something I know you want. Though you claim you have many friends, you have not one person in your life that you could truly open up to right now. You might think you like it that way but only scared people think that. You know you are sad and broken. Stop trying to build up walls that wont block you from the rain. I love to feel deeply and I am a person who embraces the rain. People like you who put up fake walls, will not be barriers to my rain dances. I will live my life with love, light, and hard emotions. You are clearly incapable of doing that. You search for validation in Flynn’s fucked up outlooks and you constantly pretend to be ok. To grow up means to learn that life is not easy and it is ok to not be ok. Though i learned that far too young, it has just made me pursue my authentic self more. You can keep pushing me away but you're only hurting yourself. Don't call me when you realize this. Instead, I want you to reflect on your warped and detached thought process. I hope that from that moment on you decide not to drag people who love you into your rollercoaster of immaturity. Best of luck on your search for me in every person you meet.