its been months and i cant stop thinking about you. i thought it would be easier to let go, better for us, but it hurts so much. i miss you and i wish you were still in my life, because it hasn't been the same without you. if i was able to, i'd go back and do things differently. i want to reach out, but i'd hate for you to be upset with me by doing so :( i'm holding myself back but i don't know how long i can handle this.