Unsent Messages

i'm sorry i ghosted you, you didn't deserve that. i just knew if we stayed friends it would be bad, i would just be there to fill your emotional validation until you found someone else. i blocked you when i found out about you and her. it hurt me for awhile, but i've been doing really well recently. that's why i can't unblock you, i can't go back and get hurt again. you were in my dream last night and once last week, it led me to write this. i'm sorry you never got closure from me but you aren't good for me. i finally feel separate from you, it's weird. before the summer, i always thought about you and what you were doing and if you were okay, but now, i don't think about you as often. i have my own life, my own goals, my own people. it's better this way, i wish it could have worked out but it wasn't meant to be. i'm sure in an alternate universe, it did workout, i'm sure we're happy in that world, and it would be selfish of me to get to have you twice. maybe in another lifetime we'll meet in a coffee shop in a far away city. i don't know if we will ever talk again, i'm sure we will, but if we don't get to say everything; i wish you and your family the best, please continue to work hard and be ambitious.