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hiii, if I could go back in time and fix what we had I wouldn't hesitate to do it in a second. i've never felt heartbreak like this. you'll always be part of my life even if youre no longer in it and refuse to text me back. I don't think I'll ever be able to listen to a lil peep song again bc of you. its so hard not to let my mind wander to the moments we has together while driving in your car. I felt safe w you, actually loved and cared for. im dumb for letting my insecurities get in the way. anyways ill be here if you ever wanna fix things, bc a love like this never really fades. thanks for the memories we made I'll forever cherish them and probably compare every new guy in my life to you. you were the first guy I really grew to love and learned to live in the moment with. the effort you put into seeing me was enough to show me that you really cared and I wish I still had time to show you that effort in return. I thought I had time, time to love you more, and now I regret not loving you with all my strength even if it came off as clingy. I decided to give you a chance and im glad I did, I'll always love you bby. even if I only got to be with you a short time I don't regret it, bc id rather love hard for a short time then not love at all.