Unsent Messages

I really want to be there for you. So fucking bad. I want to be the one to tell you that everything is going to be ok and everyone knows that you're trying your best. I hate that I got close to you. Because I see you tweet something about if you told "her" everything, she'd be disappointed. I think I know who you're talking about. Alex, she really cares about you. She knows that you're capable of a lot but she also knows about your family life and about you. If you told her everything she'd know that you're trying your hardest with your circumstances. I mean look at it from the outside. You're in your first year of college with a heavy workload and you work constantly. Also, it's college during COVID, it's going to be hard already. It's the first semester, during winter with holidays that are largely family-oriented, and that understandably brings up feelings for you. And as for the drinking and smoking, you're coping the best you can. You'll get better at it. I know you will. Lean on your friends for emotional support, lean on your boyfriend. I think this is how I'll love you from a distance. If you tweet something and I want to offer my support, I'll do this. And I know you know this is directed towards you. And I know you know who I am. You're going to be okay PoohBear.