you know what, i understand. i'm a fucking terrible person. but you are too. i know you hate this colour of blue, but it reminds me most vividly of you. i don't even know why i feel so,, fucking negatively to you. i hope you're doing well. god knows you deserve it. if i leave, promise you'll be happy. i hope your meds aren't hurting you too much. fuck you. these messages are a final fuck you to all of you. i'm not proofreading this, i'm so sorry
fuck i have no idea which blue to use. this one's prettier.