Hey Jordan. I’m sorry I didn’t make you happy like arf and shiro did. I wish I was as good as them. Yea ik were dating but. I overthink a lot and I honestly hate this fucking side of me. I fucking hate myself rn. You make me the happiest I’ve been in a while. I get jealous when you talk to arf a lot. I know. It’s stupid. I sometimes wish I were arf. I can’t fucking help but get jealous. It’s so fucking hard. Your the best bf I could ever ask for. I’m pretty sure your mad at me rn. But I love you. A lot. I’m not fucking lying alright? Sometimes I think of taking my own life away. I’ll do it soon. I love you so much. Bye.