Unsent Messages

I want to text you so bad and i think i would but i know you’re upset at me and hate me so i can’t. Everything feels to be falling apart now i wonder if it’s because i feel like death. Friends ditching me, excluding me i can’t sleep or concentrate. I’m still hurting from everything i still play the scenes in my head but every time its a different face a different person and to be honest with you i have no idea how to live without talking to u. I know you said you weren’t going to look at these but if you see this know that i miss you. i love you. and know that to me you’re the most incredible real person i know and i think ever will. I also just wanted you to know that there will be a piece if you inside me always and i take comfort in that. I hope you dont hate me. If you see this well hey cookie i miss u