Unsent Messages

Am I really to be despised of by you to an extent that you would say you're uncomfortable with me around you? It's been a year and we're acting like strangers- mere classmates we ask for work or text out of boredom. All the things you've done and said I've forgiven... but I'm still scared of giving our friendship another go. Or probably because I've tried so hard to do everything but no response from you. Even if I do get one, it's rather bland or the silence behind the words are truly deafening. Now we're leaving high school, maybe it's better to continue or play-pretend of being friends for our friend group or just really part ways like strangers. I miss our friendship, I really do. It was hard to maintain but it was the one of the things that made me keep going.