Unsent Messages

i miss you. what did i do to deserve it. you know what i’m talking about. i understand we were young but it hurt. a lot. and i am always going to remember you no matter what. i was in love. young and in love. maybe we weren’t meant to be? is that it? i hated you for months elijah. i miss you so very much and when you texted me the other day, i had hope. i finally had hope. but of course you had to leave me on read when you were literally the one who texted first, reminding me of the good days, watching movies at the same time, sending playlists to each other, playing the emoji game, and truth or dare. it made me realize how i will always need you. i know you will never see this but i just wanted to tell you i will always fall for you in a heartbeat. no matter how old i am. i always go back to you. i think of you at night when i’m about to fall asleep, even when i try my hardest to think about someone or something else, my mind seems to replace others names with yours. is it a sign? are we soulmates? is it the universe telling me we should be together? it’s always you. and always will be. i wonder if you ever think about me. when you told me you watched a certain movie that reminded you of me, it made me think that maybe i would have a second chance. especially because you said you had watched it yesterday, meaning you thought of me and you spent a whole night and day thinking of me. i love you forever elijah. forever and always. goodbye.