Unsent Messages

Ever since you left I kind of feel like someone took my heart and now it's just out in the world walking around without me. I miss you every single day, all the time. Most of the time it's easier to forget we were ever an "us" but then I want to tell you something and you're not there anymore and I feel like I'm going to just disappear. You were supposed to be here. I feel homesick without you no matter where I am because you're who I would say is my home no matter where we are but now it's like I have to figure out how to live life without you and I don't want to. I didn't ever want to. I love you still and pretending that I don't is killing me. I don't want to live without you, I'm not good at it. I wish you would come back. I wish we could fix us. I wish I could take everything back. I love you, Aubree. I love you and I miss you all the time. I hope this isn't forever but I'm kind of losing hope that you will ever change your mind and even if you did no matter how much I loved you I don't think I'll ever to be able to forgive you for what you did while you were gone.