yeah i'm back with this stupid maroon color you couldn't even fucking see. sometimes i wonder why you put me through the things you put me through but i can't come up with a reason anymore. i hate you so much yet you keep popping up in my life out of the blue like in a dream or you just text me or whatever the hell and it fucks with my head because even though you gave me a half assed apology (which was more than what i expected from you) i'm still emotionally healing from you. i hope college or whatever is treating you okay and i hope you're being good to everybody around you because i don't want to have to know that there's another person who shares a similar experience with you to mine.