i know youll never read this, but i think about you all the time. im sorry for lying and for blowing everything out of proportion when we broke up. there is no excuse and it is unforgivable. but im doing better now and i hope you became everything you wanted to be. i miss your passionate fits about niche interests and watching you grow more confident in yourself. i miss your pretty blue eyes and the way you made me feel safe. i know we will never meet or speak ever again because of what i did, but for what its worth: you were truly my first love.