if only you knew just how much i have dreamt of curling up with you while you read aloud to me, speaking softly, playing with your hair, holding your hand, all the soft stuff. but i am also terrified of hurting you. please dont stay long enough to let me. because of you i look twice when i cross the road. think twice about throwing myself into oncoming traffic. i think i might love you, but im not yet sure if i want to. If you see this - which you might - no you did not... this is not real... wake up. I love you.