i hate you. i HATE you i trusted you. i trusted you to not hurt me this time yet you did and you didn’t know until i told you and you STILL didn’t want to do anything to help.
you hurt me even more and taught me you lied to me for almost an entire year you could have told
me you weren’t happy and i wasn’t enough but you led me on AGAIN I TRUSTED YOU EVERYONE TRUSTED YOU TO NOT
DO IT AGAIN. i hate you i hate how i can’t actually hate you because i love you despite you being the biggest liar and now you’re gone. you’re gone now,
the lies stopped.
i caught you this time and you managed to prove i didn’t understand at all that i didn’t catch you. you lied and i hate how i loved you with everything i had and it still wasn’t enough. i told you i was in love with you and you still refused to change to put in effort you refused to not be selfish but the entire time you were. or were you just jealous i was moving on last year and you knew i wasn’t but you were jealous and pulled me back into your lies to make you comforted. for you to be able to say someone loves you beyond reason and will chase after you no matter what. you win i’m gone and i hope you realise in the future what you could have had if you TRIED to fight and change to be good enough. because you wasn’t. you broke the girl who was in love with you because you refused to do better for her and love i truly hope you learn to regret it that will make
me so happy because i’m not coming back if you do and you can watch me grow and be in pain without you now and be better in the future where you’re fine now but in a couple months you’ll miss my chase. you’ll miss everything i did and would say to you every day and i’ll smile when you do and realise i was good enough but for now i don’t think that i don’t get why you wouldn’t change for me i tried and held on despite the pain for so long and now i’m broken. that’s your fault and i hate you for that. but i love you because you comforted me, you were by me in tough moments. but those moments weren’t enough. i love you my softie and i wish you didn’t leave me and i wish i didn’t leave you but i’m in pieces. i can’t break anymore.