Unsent Messages

i have so much to say and i don't even know where to start. is she making you happy? no really. is she? i just want what's best for you now. i used to think about how pretty our babies would be, especially if they had your eyes, i used to only be able to fall asleep to the sounf of your voice, and now i don't even remember it, or your laught, but hopefully it's bringing her as much joy as it brought me, usually accompanied by your stupid jokes that i would give the world to get to experience one more time. maybe it trult was right person but wrong time. maybe we were just meant to be in another life. i hope there are still little things that remind you of me, maybe, but i doubt it now. maybe you'll come back to me and it'll pick up like nothing happened, maybe. i should've told you i was in love with you when i had the chance, i didn't want to scare you away, now i just regret never putting my full self out there for you to see. how is your mom and how are your dogs? the only three girls you would ever call prettier than me. how're classes? i know graduation during covid sucked, so hopefully freshman year classes are better. me and your friend dom still talk sometimes, but never about you, not anymore. go talk to him brendan, he misses you. i miss you too, i love you, and i hate that i never got to say that when i had you.