Unsent Messages

I need to get this off of my chest bc I've been so confused on whether you feel the same way or not bc of all the mixed signals. you automatically make me a more positive and happier person just by being around and my friends see it too, no one has ever had that big of an impact on me. I just wish things were easier and I wish u felt the same way, and if u do, I wish u could tell me. its so hard knowing that you prolly don't think of me half as much as I think of you. your the first thing on my mind in the morning and the last thing on my mind before I go to bed. whenever im out in the halls, your the only person I look forward to seeing. it hurts knowing you prolly like her over me. and honestly as long as your happy w her then im happy for u. part of me wants to stop chasing after u, but something isn't letting me. its like when ur shirt gets caught on the doorknob and u try walking away but u jus get caught right there. if only u knew how much u meant to me bro. there's so much I wanna talk to u abt, so much I want to do w u, there's so many things I want to do but only wit u. honestly, its crazy how one person can make me the happiest girl ever. you don't even realize how much you affect me, that's the weird part. ily. and I hope one day we'll feel the same way towards each other.