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Recently I have been having a lot of bad days and the bad thoughts are always in the back of my mind. At night and during the day they are always worse and I can never really escape them. I feel as if everyday gets more and more dreadful and I am constantly tired no matter how much sleep I get. I feel a constant weight on my shoulders that gets heavier everyday. Its hard to get through the day now without breaking down but I have been doing ok recently during the day. Night is where it gets worse and I feel as if everything in my life is collapsing. Sometimes I just want to end the pain but at the end of the day, even though I feel alone constantly I know Im not and that there are people that love me. I feel like sometimes my friends don't believe me when I try and talk to them about it which upsets me but I try not to let it get to me. The days are long but I try and remind myself that the pain is temporary.