From: ABC
To: christian
Date: January 3, 2021, 1:48 am
I’m sorry I hurt you
I’m sorry your like the people in the comments under a sad song
I’m sorry I didn’t get what was happening in your head
I’m sorry that I’m so hard to love
I’m sorry we met at the wrong time
I’m sorry I didn’t listen to you when you wanted me too
I’m sorry I invalidated your feelings
I’m sorry your angry
....
I’m just so sorry.
I wish I could go back in time and if I could I would do it all a million times
I wish you could see how hard this is on my soul
And I don’t know why I can’t get over it after so long
You blocked me out of your life and I’m so happy for you because I just hurt people
But in every person I meet I look for you in them
And the you I have in my head doesn’t exist anymore
It’s gone
I’m slowly forgetting the sound of your voice
The way you look when you smile
The memory of you is faint
And sometimes I realize I’m hurting myself
I’m hurting myself.
And I think about it and I never really knew you did I?
I fell in love with the version I made in my head
And I’m so obsessed with the thought you chasing me
I’m so toxic.
I crave attention and the chase
You didn’t make me chase and I think that’s what pushed me back
You gave me everything I thought I needed
And I knew that I didn’t deserve that
Your soul was so pure but so damaged
The look in your eyes you could just see the pain
I didn’t understand you though
But now I realize that I was never what you needed
You hurt because of someone else and maybe I was the chase that you liked
The rebound
But what kills me most is how I moved on until you tried to come back
After you said you still had feelings I pushed you away and then regretted everything
I just hope one day you know I never meant to hurt you
I was just trying to love you.
