you know, your hugs may be the softest thing I've felt in a while. i wish i could hold you in my arms one last time. i never got to say goodbye. i knew you weren't the best person. the moment you decided to fix yourself it was too late. the alcohol had gotten to you. you were half disabled permanently, and there was no way out of it. i knew how ill you were. but your death was something i never expected. i miss you. and i wish I could've told you that before you went. you don't leave my mind. we still celebrate your birthdays. i hope you're doing alright.