Unsent Messages

i wish you were here to tell me that everything is going to be ok. i've never felt so hopeless. i think, in some ways, you'd be proud of me. i'm finally at a normal weight again, i hardly think about my past trauma anymore, and i think i finally have my emotional state under control. and... it took you leaving me behind for me to do that. it feels kind of pointless now. why did i fix myself, knowing that i wouldn't have anyone to share my improvements with? i tried loving someone else. he cheated on me. that was the first time that's ever happened to me. god, it hurt. you were the only one who made me feel human. the only one who treated me right. and now i sit and wait for a love that will never return to me. i hope you're well, my love. i miss you more with each passing day.