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i loved you so so much. i thought you did too. you messed around with me because you knew i was wrapped around your finger. fuck you. you broke me. its been almost a year. you made me get an ed because all you did was body shame me. you cheated on me SIX times. you are so messed up. i hate you. so much. but i still miss you even though i shouldnt. and i still love you. i wish we could have worked. im waiting. im waiting for you to come back even though it will hurt me. but are you even gonna come back this time? its been almost two months since you left the last time. are we over? id rather have you come back and hurt me multiple more times than you never coming back. id do anything to be with you some more time. id do anything just to hear your voice. you really messed up. but im still forgiving you even though i shouldnt. maybe i should say goodbye and block you. idk if i could even force myself to do that. i love you and always will.