i just want to hold your hand one last time and hear your laugh and feel your hug. i want you to walk in the door with those cinnamon buns and tease me. i want to see you in your church suit one last time. i want you to wink at me across the dinner table or even just smile. i wanted to say goodbye. photos and memories will have to do for now. i like tea now did you know? shame we can’t drink it together.