Unsent Messages

i miss you, i think we would've worked out yk? you were my first and it may not have been for long but it meant a lot to me. would you have stayed with me if you knew this whole quarntine thing was going to happen? you said you didn't want to be together because you thought you were going to be busy and not have time for me. do you still think about me? even just the slight thought of how i am or what i'm doing? cuz i do, it's been more than 6 months but i still can't help but think about you. you showed me what it was like to be cared for, again you were my first i was not experienced and i didn't know what to do. if i'm being honest we didn't really get to know each other. sure we talked and everything but i feel like we never REALLY got to know each other. i was so nervous about our date that i remember wishing i talked a bit more. i just didn't want to say anything stupid or mess up and embarrass myself. u also kissed me at the end of our date, you were my first kiss as well, i was really surprised when it happened but it was nice i remember not getting over the feelign and butterflies even after it happened. remember when i ran two blocks to hug you? my dad thought we had such an awkward goodbye and let me go give a proper goodbye. i remember n sending me the texts of u and her and u said u thought it was really cute and i couldn't stop smiling. that was also when u gave me ur sweatshirt god i loved the smell of it, i wore it almost everyday. when we were a thing or in a relationship whatever you want to call it, i had never been so happy. knowing that someone likes me as much as i like them, it was amazing and i wish to feel like that again. i'm not saying i will rely on a guy but god did you make me so happy. i kinda wish we were still friends but at the same time i feel like it would've been harder to get over you, i wonder if you're talking to anyone or dating even? i j wish you the best and i hope you're happy. you really are one of a kind tylor.