Unsent Messages

and you know what i hate the most? you say you were toxic and that i deserved better. but i didn’t want better, i wanted you. because to me there isn’t better. i wanted you to love me enough to where you would be better for me. and you know what maybe you were toxic in your head, but to me you were the only one who ever treated me like i mattered when we were together. you made me so happy. and that’s another thing i hate most is when you tell me you were toxic. because like i said maybe you were, maybe your mindset wasn’t good but honestly let’s face it, maybe you were the villain in your own story but you were never once the villain in mine. not then not now not ever. and i know you hate that you hurt me but what you don’t understand is that the only reason i’m so hurt is because i want you here, is because i miss you, and i think that should speak for itself. it’s now 7:04 am and i should sleep before i decide to write this in your dms.