it’s currently 6:51 am and i’ve been up since 5 because my head keeps racing with thoughts about you. sometimes i text you but unsend the message immediately. i do that because of mornings like this where i can’t get you off my mind. i’ll think it’s a great idea to text you but then immediately after realize it’s not and then i’ll unsend it and feel like an idiot and sometimes i even break down crying after. i hate being apart from you. i hate not knowing what’s going on in your life i hate not being able to speak to you i hate not being able to see you or hold you or kiss you or any of that i hate not being in your life. i hate it so much. i miss you and it’s literally breaking me.