i finally think i’m over your shit, i thought it would be more painful to say goodbye but it wasn’t, whether that’s because i blocked it all out and stopped thinking about you or because i never really cared i’m unsure of. i actually feel sorry for you, a shitty school with shitty people, i pity you. i pity you. i never told you i pitied you cause you would’ve felt so angry, but i did, and i still do, just know that. you won’t see this ever, i know you won’t, but writing this just feels great. i realised anytime we’re not talking i seem to get better and as soon as i’m reminded of you or talk to you again i fall back into a pit. i’m better, i wish you could be honest and say the same but you can’t cause you’re not. i don’t think i ever loved you, i just loved what i had convinced myself you were, in truth you’re just a horrible person. do what you want, i’m not here anymore :)