Unsent Messages

I miss you so much and you don't even realize it. Whenever I think about us I can't help but to blame myself for never being able to open up and be normal person. You see, whenever I was going through something hard in my life I wanted to tell you but I couldn't bring myself without overthinking every little thing. I have been in relationships where the other person didn't care about anything I did or thought. However, you, you were different you always check up on me, you always knew when I wasn't acting like myself, you always knew how to cheer me up. And I will never ever forget how you made me feel. You knew about things that not even my family knew about and you always tried to help me get through these thing. But I guess that over time you just couldn't handle that I wasn't easy to be with. I guess you just gave up on me, and I don't blame you because I would have too. I wouldn't want to be stuck with someone who is so messed up that even having someone like you in their life doesn't make them reconsider things in life. I just wish I could go back in time and fix myself and make things right. I wish I could go back in time and tell you that I love you but its too late and I wish I could fix things but I know I can't. I just hope that whoever gets to have you next doesn't mess up as bad as I did, because you are an extraordinary person with such a big heart.