From: ABC
To: Kathryn
Date: January 2, 2021, 5:47 pm
To Katie,
the likelihood of you seeing this is slim, but i need to say it somewhere because i can’t bring myself to send this to you in person.
i love you. so much. i know you need space right now, and i will give you as much time as need to heal, and to be your best self. and no matter how long that takes, i promise i will be here, waiting for you. you are the first person i have ever truly loved, and there isn’t anything you could do to make me stop loving you. you’re my last thought before i fall asleep, and my first thought when i wake up. i miss your eyesand the way they sparkle, and how when the light hits them they glow the colour of an amazonite crystal. i miss your smile, and the way your laugh is like sunshine in a snowstorm, and rain in a drought.
I was searching for my childhood teddy the other night, when i accidentally found your jumper that i’d hidden by my bed, and i began to tear up, but as i inhaled your perfume, i instantly let out a sigh of relief, because being reminded of your sweet scent felt like a warm, comforting hug, and i instantly felt an overwhelming sense of safety.
I have spent my entire life worrying about what other people think, worrying that if i get too comfortable i might scare them away. but with you, i feel like i’ve known you all my life. i truly feel like i can be myself. you make me feel like i have a purpose, like i am wanted. it sounds so so stupid, but i didn’t really believe in soulmates until i met you. as soon as i laid eyes on you for the very first time, i just knew there was something special about you. i just had a feeling that i needed to know you. and ever since, every time you do so much as cross my mind, i get those butterflies in my stomach all over again. and even though i miss you immensely, i know that this is just temporary, so i will allow it to pass, because i am absolutely terrified of losing you for good, so if it means that i have to wait, i absolutely will. i love you, more than you will ever know. i look forward to seeing you soon :)