Unsent Messages

I miss what we had, but I wouldn't change a thing. because of you, I'm stronger. I'm a better person. losing you made me realize everything. I am okay without you, I used to believe I wasn't, but I am. you were a part of my life and you're not anymore. that's how it goes. people come into your life, and they leave. its life. I love you, but I don't want you back. I don't need you in my life. I still need to find myself, but I hope you don't worry about me. I'm doing well. I met Rifat, he's really sweet, even though he doesn't like to admit it. he's funny and he makes me smile. he treats me so well, and I really love him. I told him about you one time. he understood everything. he is applying to college here, so hopefully, we will be able to be with each other. I think he can make me really happy. I think he can make me love myself. he tells me he would never hurt me, or make me feel unsafe, and I believe him. but anyway, I hope you're doing well. I know you're dating Emily and I hope everything is going well with you guys, I hope she makes you happy. I know you got a car, two even if I'm correct. I know you love cars and I'm happy for you. I hope you get to go to the Marines like you always wanted. I hope you get an amazing job, and I hope you and Emily work out. You deserve to be happy.
I often think about you, sometimes I miss the presence of you in my life.. but I don't think I miss you actually being here. you made me lose myself. when you left, everything was ruined. I never felt happiness, until I met Rifat. my life seems to be changing for the better. Am I getting over you? finally? I sure hope so. I'm not going to let myself be tied down anymore. I have my own shit to do, I have my own life to get on with, I have my own goals. So I wish you good luck, in all your new adventures and curveballs to come your way. I wish you the best of luck in life. goodbye.