Unsent Messages

fuck you really hurt me. you made me believe you loved me. you knew how hard it was for me to trust and open up. you told me you would never hurt me. yet you did the exact thing I told you would hurt the most.
why? why couldn't you just leave me alone? why did you do that to me?
ik I'm just another name on your list, but you knew how much u meant to me, and you made me believe you felt the same way.
was it all a lie? when we hung out together every single day for hours? when you said I'm your favourite person?
was it all just a lie to take my virginity? ig it worked.
how could you do that? you knew how insecure and scared I was ab loosing it and letting a man see my body like that after my past, and yet you took it and left. you made me believe we were doing better than ever, you kissed me goodbye and after that you acted like I never meant anything. like what we had was nothing. you said that we could be friends, and off I said yes bc I can't stand the thought of loosing you, but it fucking hurts. going from being in love and together to barley talking and only seeing each other when I buy from you.
you fucking suck.
the worst part is that you'll never know how bad of a person you are and how much u hurt me bc I will never tell you. bc every time I did you looked at me like I was an annoying kid, and you acted like I was crazy and childish.
I was always scared that you'd stop liking me bc I'm younger and more immature so I stopped telling you when you hurt me. bc I didn't wanna loose you for being to childish for you.
and as much as I hate you I can't loose you. so I won't say anything. but I hope you get hurt like I did. I hope someone uses you and makes you question your worth, I hope you give up on love. bc that's what you did to me.
fucking hell you're a fucking loser, you're 20 and unemployed, you don't go to school, you live at home, youre short. I'm doing more w my life and I'm 16. fuck you fr you hurt me so much.
but "you didn't plan to fuck me you just got too horny" so its fine right? I never even said yes.... you just did it.
J