Hey grandpa. Its been awhile. You have no idea what its like down here without you. Its been almost 5 years without you. I miss you more and more each day. I think about you all the time. You meant so much to me. I wish you were here to watch me grow up. You were the father I never had. I miss the hum of the lawnmower in the afternoons, the sound of you rummaging through the freezer looking for ice cream. I miss you so much, Grandpa. I'm afraid I'm gonna forget your face forever. It feels like everyone's forgotten you. That's what i hate. I wish i could have one last hug from you. Or one last ice cream cone. I hope youre doing good up there. I hope youre watching over me. I miss you so fucking much it hurts.