what have we become? a relationship so happy. so loving. now turned into a disaster. i've never been so afraid of the future. i'm afraid of everything. never been so sensitive. i don't cry. but somehow i cry every night when i'm with you. i want you. but the pain is unbearable. tearing me down every second of the day. i'm slowly dying. the spark is slowly dying. deep down i acknowledge this. but when i'm put face to face with you, i turn a blind eye and look the other way. i don't want us to die out. i'm fighting as much as i can to ignore everything. hopefully if i ignore everything, it'll all go away. like a nightmare. when does this nightmare end and when can i wake up?