Unsent Messages

you used me, no matter how much you said you truly cared about me in the past when you left it showed that you didn't. that I think hurt the most, also seeing you turn into a completely different person. I trusted you with everything for you just to leave like everyone else did. I always told you that I never felt like enough because of how people in the past treated me but you did the same thing. and it hurt a lot when it seemed like it didn't affect you at all. when I was sobbing to you and you just didn't care how you made me feel like the bad one when you were the one hurting me all along. ill always love you, not in love anymore but I care and love you so much and that'll never change. because considering all the bad you treated me better than you did any and idk if that was part of the trick or if you truly did think that I was different yk... you made me feel special you gave me a purpose to get up everyday and not give up. but now that ur gone I tried to find ur love in other places and just ended up hurting more but just denying it. I keep acting like I'm ok that it didn't effect me that I don't need you but I rly do. I wanna be held in your arms. in caring loving arms and I rly need it rn. you won't believe how much has changed since you left haha. they all leave I didn't know why it would be any different with you lmfao. I'm sorry but I have to let you go once and for now on. everything. the pictures, videos, family, the old me, the old you... cause you aren't you anymore. Goodbye Kenneth.