Unsent Messages

hey, um I know you don't care but I am moving on. it's over now you could text me and I will no longer feel anything. But in the past I would feel all the sparks and butterflies but that's gone because when you lost your self I was there to help you and back you up onto your feet again even though we are miles and miles away from each other I still helped you up. Now that I am down on my face and on the verge of wanting to die your not here and depression is eating me away and you have not texted me once and asked how am I, but its how it works I guess you are thriving and I am just here dying inside and just numb. I listen to all your problems with your mom and dad, your sisters, your brothers, your stepdad and so much more, and not yet once have I ever repeated anything to anyone and I will always keep it to myself because you trust me, well used to trust me. I don't know how you are but to me, you look fine and happy. You are always posting quotes about hoes and screenshots of messages from your friends talking a girl and group chats talking about them and even messages of your conversation with those girls. The thing is I don't know what I saw in you because right now I see nothing but a manipulative, lying, and deceiving person. but when we were younger I saw a smart, caring, and kind boy. But that was 6 years ago when we kid converting to teens. Now we adolescences converting to adults so it's not the same I guess. You even smoke marijuana now and have no care about your future and just following the crowd.
But I guess that one special rapper was right
" Don't ever fall in love while you're young its fake."