Unsent Messages

hey.. i know its almost been a year since we ended but do you ever think of me? im in another relationship and i love him and he treats me like an angel but sometimes i think about us and how i could still be with you and it makes me question whether im in the right place or not. i dont think i would leave him for you at all, im very happy with him, happier than i was with you but also i really just hope you think of me at night when ur alone and the feels hit, i hope you think about what you lost, i hope you miss me and its selfish because i dont want you back but i really really hope you miss me, i hope seeing me with him makes you angry, i hope you look at me and regret leaving, i hope you smile then cry thinking about our memories. since you moved on so fast i hope that now you go through what i went through in the beginning, i hope you feel the pain i felt. but you wont will you? i never really meant that much to you. i would say i wish you all the best but i dont, i want you to hurt, i want it to hurt you, i want to matter. it just drives me crazy that losing me had to effect on you. i just want to be appreciated enough that my absence bothers you.