Unsent Messages

im just gonna keep ranting bc i know your never gonna see this. i stay up late at night thinking about you. thinking about how much I love you and how much I don't deserve you. i know I shouldn't but every time we talk about your past crushes or celebrity crushes, my heart cracks a bit. Im so insecure about myself and a part of me is always comparing myself to your past crushes. I don't know why out of all people, you chose me. I stopped acting sad because I don't want you to see how insecure I am. I also want you to be comfortable with me and not being able to joke around and talk would hinder that. I don't think I've ever told you just how insecure I am because I don't want to feel like a burden. You have helped me so much and honestly when I'm with you that stuff just disappears. but my adhd and anxiety are constantly telling me u hate me, I'm not worth it, you are too good for me, and that you don't want me. I know its not true but deep down it stays on my mind. I hope you never leave my side and that one day i can open up to you about this