Unsent Messages

i wish we could’ve gotten a real goodbye. Or never had one at all honestly. I was so so immature . I’m so sorry . You deserved so much better than that. Up until I had met you, I had never known what ‘real love’ felt like, and when we got so close , it scared me . I pushed you away. I didn’t know how to react , and when you were going to leave that scared me even more because I didn’t want anything to change. I loved what we had, you were so perfect. I was scared to ruin that and I did what I used to do best and I pushed you away. I’m so so sorry, it was so selfish of me to do. I like to think i’ve grown a lot since then, but that’s still no excuse for how i treated you. nothing can ever excuse that. i still read that letter you gave me on my birthday lol! and i always love to look at that little fork guy, and the cool ass bracelet .I even have the polaroid of you up on my mirror still. I hope that isn’t weird , i just. like to remind myself of one of the most perfect years of my life. i love you , always! Malyssa told me your new girlfriend is pretty ;)))) You seem so so happy :,) Miss you. Hope you’re doing super well !! Also i’m so sorry about the sweater thing , I genuinely honest to god was not home. I wouldn’t ever have done anything to spite you and I got the money to buy you a new one too just so you didn’t have to worry about the stain, i’m sorry .